I volunteered one thing the other night. I would get myself tested. Mentally, I will only go that far.
I will not deconstruct my wall and I will not get my hopes up.
In fact, I will hope that my eggs are past expiration. Perhaps that's an additional measure of closure that I can handle appropriately.
So now I am seeking a fertility clinic and dr in the DC area. If you have experience in such, please drop me a line or refer my question on. I am not up on the current batch of bloggers who might have knowledge.
Never in a million years thought I would put up a post like this after being left at the IVF alter by both a husband (1999) and a fiance (2005). Or that it would be a lesbian wanting it with me.